Moon's Story (Part 2)

Zexion's POV


Many years had passed since then, and to this day I still read with Moon whenever she wants me around. I didn’t exactly know why… But as the years passed I had started to grow more and more fond of spending time with Moon, regardless of what we were doing to pass the time. But lately I’ve started to feel… Much different. It’s hard to explain since I don’t really know what it is I’m feeling, or why I’m even feeling it. I don’t have a heart, after all; so why should I be feeling any kind of emotion?

I leafed through the pages of many different books in an attempt to find the answers to my questions, but nothing particularly useful was found. I closed the last book in slight frustration and buried my face in my hands. “What is wrong with me?” I mumbled to myself, grunting slightly as I stood up.

I left the library, still wracking my brains for the answer to my situation. “Maybe I can ask someone else,” I said to myself.

“Zexion?” The voice from the newest member of the Organization, Roxas, spoke up and snapped me out of my train of thought. “You alright? You seem out of it.”

“I’m fine,” I lied through my teeth while trying to shake off this uneasy feeling. “But I would like to ask you a question if you don’t mind.”
“Uh.. Sure, go ahead.”

I let out a deep breath before I started to talk again. “I’ve been feeling a bit strange lately, and the feelings seem to be a bit more prevalent whenever I’m around Moon. Would you happen to know what could be wrong with me?”

Roxas thought about an answer for a moment before he finally shrugged his shoulders. “I’m sorry, Zexion. I have no clue.”

I sighed and shook my head. “No, don’t apologize. I didn’t really expect you to know the answer either. I’ll just go find Marluxia, maybe he’ll know something.”

“Alright, good luck,” Roxas said before moving past me and going into the library

I rubbed my temples with my fingers in slight frustration as I left to search for Marluxia. If I was lucky, he didn’t have to do anything special today, so I would expect to find him in his room. I knocked on his door and stood there for a moment. As luck would have it, he did finally answer the door. “Oh hello there, Zexion,” Marluxia said as he examined my expression. “Something seems to be troubling you. Would you like to come inside and talk about it?”

“No, I’m not here to stay,” I said, waving my hand in dismissal. “I just came to ask a simple question, that’s all.”

Marluxia’s curiosity seemed to be peaked, but he kept a straight face. “Oh? And what’s the question?”

“Well.. I can’t explain it, but I’ve been feeling different lately. The feeling itself is what I can’t seem to explain. It’s just that… Whenever I’m around Moon, I just feel something that I don’t think I’ve ever felt before. Would you know how to explain to me what it is I’m feeling.”

Marluxia started to grin in what I could swear was amusement, but he shook his head instead. “I believe that you already know the answer to that,” Marluxia chimed. “You just need to think about it a little more.”

I scoffed and blew stray strands of hair out of my face. “You’re not helping at all.”

“Don’t worry, Zexion. It’s nothing bad.”

“How am I supposed to know that for sure when you won’t even give me a clear answer?”

“As I said, just think about it a little bit harder. The answer should come to you soon enough.”

I rolled my eyes in annoyance and turned to walk away. “Whatever, I’ll just ask someone else since you don’t want to give me my answer.”

“Suit yourself,” Marluxia said as he went back into his room. Well if Marluxia didn’t know the answer, or knew and just didn’t want to tell me to be an asshole, then who else could possibly know what was wrong with me?

I spent the next hour and a half walking around the castle, telling the other Organization members about my problem and asking if there was something wrong with me. Some of them gave me the same answer as Roxas, while others gave me answers closely similar to Marluxia’s answer. Basically, I was making no progress. I didn’t have any answers or explanations as to why I was feeling this way. I finally found Larxene and decided that I would try asking her anyway, despite all of the other unclear answers I’ve received so far. “Hey Larxene? Can I talk to you for a moment?”

“Hm? Sure I guess,” Larxene said. “What the problem?”

I repeated the problem for what seemed like the millionth time to her, and when I was finished she was groaning and rubbing her temple with her fingers. “You idiot… For a bookworm, you really are dense, ya know that?”

I gave her a puzzled expression and crossed my arms. “What in the world are you talking about, Larxene?”

“Zexion, I’ll say it once, and I’ll say it as clearly as I possibly can.” Larxene pointed a finger at me and stared me dead in the eye. “You LIKE her.”

“I-I what?” My eyes went wide with surprise at Larxene’s answer; it was definitely one that I wasn’t expecting to hear.

“You like Moon. You have a crush on her, and you probably had a crush on her for a long time by now.”

“But how is that even possible?” I questioned, perplexed at the thought that I could even have those kind of feelings. “I’m a Nobody. I shouldn’t have a crush on anyone, let alone any kind of emotion.”

“Beats me,” Larxene said, shrugging her shoulders. “But it’s obvious with the way that you talk about her, and how you feel about being around her.”

I gulped and cast my gaze downwards. “So what should I do about this?”

“Tell her how you feel, of course. I’m sure she would like to know herself.”

“But what if she doesn’t feel the same?” Unconsciously, I was starting to feel worried now. I didn’t know why, but the thought of her not feeling the same way for me just made me feel very uneasy.

“Hey, don’t stress out about that just yet,” Larxene said reassuringly. “Just go and tell her whenever you’re ready. I’m sure she’ll at least listen to what you have to say.”

“Are you sure?”

“I’m positive. You two have been close for as long as I can remember. I’m sure everything will turn out just fine.”

Hearing Larxene’s words and finally getting an answer to my question made me feel much better. “I’ll see what I can do whenever I’m ready.”

“Well then good luck,” Larxene said before waving and walking away. I sighed and walked away from her as well, heading back to my own room while I attempted to regain my composure.

Once I got there, I paced around in circles for what seemed like an eternity, thinking of the many possible ways that I could tell Moon without seeming like a nervous idiot or without getting flat out rejected.

I tried to calm down after remembering the advice Larxene gave me, to not stress out about it right now. I sighed and fell back onto my bed, trying to relax as much as possible. Worrying about this right now wouldn’t do me any good. I would be able to tell Moon when I was ready, but I felt that now wasn’t the time for it yet. I draped the bed covers over my body and closed my eyes, wanting to drift off to sleep as soon as possible to keep my mind from spinning any worse than it already was.